During my last few TR-O confronts I really thought about where I was going wrong and I finally realized that every time I tried treatment in the past, I was forced by the courts or by my family and I never realized my actions got me in this position. I just thought about the quickest way to get out of the situation that I believed my family or the courts put me in. What I really have realized is that I had to confront myself. I had never confronted my. Being a drug addict I had never dealt with the consequences I had brought on myself. I now realize it is no one’s fault but my own. This has been my biggest barrier. I have also come to realize that no one else in the world controls my decisions but myself. I honestly figured out that I am not only the problem, I am the solution to the problem as well. “I turned it on and I can turn it off.” I haven’t felt this awesome in years!